The Vicious Cycle returns

Crash!

Bang.

Pop!

My heart smacks down to the ground. 

My head is spinning. 

My hope diminished (for the moment).

So many ups the past few weeks... The come down is even more vivid and intense now. 

My once coherent angelic child has left, and her counterpart, 'Dizzy Izzy' is showing herself again. 

Seizures steal. Time, Vitality, Balance, Energy, Experiences and Love. 

Spinning like a top, she is 'rolling' off of diasapam. Like an addict in withdrawal, she becomes insane like a wild animal.

She can't hear me... Her brain is unwired... 

Body. Constantly moving. Falling, tripping, breaking, acrobatics on crack, rocking, hopping, climbing, throwing.

Voice. Incessantly talking... Babbling so I cannot make out the words. Perceverating. Broken record. Forgetful. 

Heart. Seeking love and attention in all the wrong ways. 

Must be so scared and lonely.

Can't embrace her... She's like a injured moth trying to get away... I don't want to get head butted in the lip again... Or kicked, poked, licked...

Soul. I put her to bed telling her to put her hands on her heart to give herself the 'healing energy'. I advise her to tell herself: 'I do not feel good in my body. I love and accept myself.' Repeat.

She's a magical child. Energy work will be good for us. Time to reconnect and find our balance just in time for another cycle. 

The cycle IS vicious.